I’ve lost 40 lbs in the last 6 months.
It’s the easiest hardest thing I’ve ever done.
I’ve been trying to lose weight ever since I lost last time. In 2003. I fasted (just water) for 45 days total and lost 50 lbs total. It was hell (also, a time of total emotional and spiritual awakening coinciding with my Saturn return). And, I not-so-slowly gained it back with interest.
And fought with it for the last 14 years.
Weeping wailing and gnashing of teeth…
Eating more to balance it out
Losing a few pounds.
Binging to deal with the fear that was let triggered by losing them (!).
I have been praying.
Praying and meditating.
And, after almost a decade of very intense (**very** intense) personal development work, finally have hit the ‘fat stuff’.
At least it feels that way.
The reasons I eat are different.
The way I eat is different.
And now it’s just basically melting off.
No hard work. No grit-my-teeth through it. Nothing that feels like a diet (I could do this forever).
And pounds just melting off like they say they should (1-2 per week). Over months.
A little plateau here and there. But not much.
Another 30 to go to get to “ideal” [funny, I feel/notice ‘being fat’ now more than I did 6 months ago].
But, I am happy. This felt like something to ‘take care of’ before I did a bunch of other stuff on my health and healing list.
And so I pushed a lot of stuff in front of me.
Now that this seems to be resolving, I feel excited about my next personal development and health goals.
That’s it. Thanks for reading.
I love you.